My Best Bad Day

My life is currently better than it has ever been. I have a sense of individuality and self sufficiency. I am far more sexually active than I ever have been. I make way more money. I eat better. I sleep better. I am rarely ever bored and almost never alone. Generally i’m doing what I want. 

Yet occasionally (like once every three to six months) I’ll just break down crying for like a whole fuckin day. Not like Denzel man tears either. Like sobbing child that broke his leg crying. Like heart attack causing, can’t move, wanna stab myself crying. This happened recently.

It is usually caused by my incessant need to be in love with someone, but is always peppered with that classic nihilistic sense that all life (especially mine) has absolutely no meaning. When these days happen I almost always, like 95% of the time, burn some bridges that I really don’t want to burn. This time was different. 

Of course I went through all of my usual, truth revealing, bridge burning steps. Yet the person on the other side of the bridge just simply put that fire out. Just this one person. I spoke my piece and ruined my image in her eyes (according to me), but she just accepted it and continued to be one of the best friends I have ever had. She didn’t ignore it, she accepted it and recognized that that was how I felt and decided not to treat me any different. We are gonna just work through it.

Regardless of labels and history, she is never going to leave me. Through all of my bad days and through all of my untreated depression, she will be there.  She knows when I am sad before I do and she knows why when I don’t. She may be the cause of some of my sorrow, but she is also the cause of most of my happiness.

I am not sure why i am writing this particular post. I am sober and having a good night off. I guess I just feel like somewhere there should be a record of how much I appreciate and truly, deeply love this person. I always have. I always will. Long live the queen.

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radicalfruit:

a-s-d-f-g-h-j-k-l-no:

gorillamunchies:

why does this make me feel mad

Because he’s considered powerful, and she’s considered a whore.

*shots fired*

Guys this is a video of two fit people doing impressive shit. I think the only people making this an issue of sex is you guys. I don’t see any comments inciting your indignation. Just sayin…

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I Am Tougher Than I Look

I can take a lot. I can take the loss of a relationship that wasn’t meant to be. I can take the loss of the closest family I have. I can watch friends drift apart and pets die. I can even endure being left by the love my life for someone else.
However I can’t take this. I can’t watch that same love fall for less than Myself. Less than me. To fail for the same manipulative selfish bullshit that i ran before i developed my conscience. No. I won’t. Not her. Not my peaches. I will stand in her bridal party proud and strong with lips sealed tight for any man that loves her even half as much as I do, but I will not let her learn this lesson the hard way. I will not stand by and say “i told you so” this time. Not with her. This nigga won’t make it. I have to stop this. I just know it’s going to suck. But hey, when have i ever done anything right that didn’t suck?

mississippi72:

nowinexile:

The last words said by Black youth murdered by policemen. 

This is honestly the most heart breaking thing I’ve seen in a long time

This is horrible

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Unity

Minorities need help. This is the time for white people to step up and support black people. This right here is the perfect opportunity for us to unite against a force that will eventually become too powerful to even speak out against. Our police must be controlled. They must face justice. Minorities need white people to join them, so other white people will care. Sadly, white people are needed to add credibility to a good cause. Sadder still, many black people won’t accept genuine help from white people. We have to unite. Soon we will be like every other nation in history that fell into that trap and the only way to beat them will be to join them.

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coolfeminist:

This is really fucking powerful.

coolfeminist:

This is really fucking powerful.

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pocketfulofgeek:

I cheered. I was the only one.

No you weren’t

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ellieandrews:

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thatfunnyblog:

You know what’s creepy about Humpty Dumpty?

They never said he was an egg.

image

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oh…

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Anonymous said: I really like winnie the pooh, Can you draw winnie the pooh pleaseeeeee

iguanamouth:

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brook:

squall “no one is going to touch this virginity” leonhart

brook:

squall “no one is going to touch this virginity” leonhart

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ruinedchildhood:

The Kermit memes are my new favorite ones.

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crayonster:

timeturner:

bex-chan:

you know you’re getting old when you watch the little mermaid and when ariel says “i’m 16 years old. i’m not a child anymore.” and you’re just sat there like yes you fucking are young lady stop it

The day you start agreeing with the parents in kids movies is the day it’s all over.

I was old when I was 12

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pocketfulofgeek:

I let you live once, princess.
I am not a princess.

Dave Bautista did fantastically as Drax. I’m usually very apprehensive when wrestlers get cast in acting roles, but Bautista put all those worries to rest within minutes on screen.

Yeah, I both hate wrestling and love Drax so I was very worried, but he was totally amazing. 

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